It was around Diwali time and was thinking of Sri Lakshmi Maa and what would it feel if I concentrated on her. Many times I would get this mudra seen in the picture above and it would be more of a state. Anyways after a few minutes of contemplation it began.

It’s subtle, soft and sensuous(not sexual), luxurious,sweet, blissful. A smile radiates and pleasure and bliss envelopes the nervous system on the outer layer of the body. I don’t feel the inside of my body. It’s like my body does not feel solid: like I don’t feel the bed that I am lying on. Then it’s the feeling of being surrounded by beautiful flowers with white and gold decor things around.

This time as I am experiencing this, I am trying to pay attention instead of just being in it. The awareness part is trying to make a note and then the following thoughts comes into my awareness:

I am that which becomes, that which is born.

The void is there and it explodes, it dances, it experiences itself. It is so intense that it wants to experience more. It dances and splits and creates the world, then creates some of itself. To experience this new realm, the realm begins to change and being gets embedded in the realm of forms. How interesting I say? I must create and create and create more and more realms. And so it begins.

I stopped and contemplated the thoughts that was coming and shifted out of it and could not continue.