Originally written but forgot to publish.

Each God/Goddess, master, or satguru has a unique cosmic energy pattern. One can say it is a unique vibration.

Whereas the energy of Sri Durgaa will make you feel like you will explode from inside out, Sri Laksmi is most pleasant and captivating. It is subtle, sensuous(not sexual), luxurious, sweet, blissful and a smile radiates from within. It is sheer pleasure but I don’t feel my body inside. Its like I’m experiencing my aura but as if the aura is connected to my nervous system running through my arms, face, legs , and back and the bliss is so sweet. I wonder how it will feel I am not in my body. This is different to other experiences where you experience the whole inner body as well. When I first started to experience the mudra some years ago, it was less subtle and more forceful but now as I have gone more deep into the Ananda kosha, then I don’t have the mudra anymore. However I think if I’m with devotees of Shri Laksmi, the mudra might appear to show her presence.

I am just drunk with bliss. There are no pains or incoming thoughts, but I can use some part of mind or awareness to acknowledge and know that I am experiencing this unique feeling and observe how it feels. This is why I can describe it. While I am writing this it is gone, but if I just say and think Jai Shri Lakshmi then I’m in that again. Then I won’t be able to talk or to write this.

If I stay long then my imagination or something brings to me a place of me sitting on some kind of bed or furniture covered with white sheets soft like silk. The back rest is with white and gold and the room has of gold trimmings on the doors and some parts with white walls. The place is decorated in flowers and it seems heavenly. But I am sitting there all wrapped in this bliss. I think it’s my imagination so I stop letting my mind go there and just stay within my body and pay attention to my awareness of my bliss. It’s like this cosmic energy lives in pure beauty inside and outside and adds everything that is beautiful in the world. It is so wonderful that I have to share it.

Peace and prosperity to you who read.