Become a Seeker

The chances for a human birth are very slim in the universe of creation so it is indeed a great thing that we are here and we simple know each other. It is indeed a miracle. Living in this time has us so caught up in the materialistic world that we sometimes forget our divine self and why we are here. Anyone who has observed life or read the words from the great ones have all come back and said love, be kind  and serve each other, for our idea that we are separated is somewhat a construct of the ego. This is just the beginning of our evolution of change to know something more of our self.

Seek and you will find

In recent years there have never been a time as now where we can change our perceptions for there are myriads of books, the internet and many teachers. So the time to really seek God, know thyself  or explore your purpose is here, now. This is why I don’t really write messages anymore. Someone who is truly seeking, will find, for this has been my observation.  Everyone is free to seek in their fashion. But good karmic deeds help us all along the way in all aspects of life.

Free will is important

I see that free will is an important aspect of our growth. When I started this website I made the mistake of asking maybe one or two people to come and learn because I was so anxious to follow what guru had instructed. I then learned never try to impose any particular religion or technique on anyone even if I know it will help them. Seeking to really know God is is a private personal thing and not a societal thing. The most important thing is to ‘know thyself’. The great souls whose teachings many follow did their own personal seeking or unity with all there is and came out with suggestions and tools for growth.  If I meet any seeker I try to guide them from within their own religion or perception.

I will say this from my own journey.

Love and service is the key to start the journey. Just doing good deeds does not eliminate you from the wheel or rebirth. It is something great but more is needed for your own spiritual growth. Spontaneous awakening can happen anytime.

Humanity will only grow spiritually from going inwards for everything emanates from within for we exist within God and God exists within us.

Understanding the flow of energy, our light body within ourselves and how we are connected to each other and everything else cannot be learned from a book.

Progress slowly but make some progress. Death can come at anytime. It is only when we face chaos, death and devastation that some of us takes a breath or a step back to look at where we are in life and what matters. We seek God and each other for comfort. My advice is to take a few minutes each day to connect with yourself until you know what’s next to do.

At least become a seeker if you are not. Bhakti yoga is the easiest and begins your journey. Bhakti is love for God but it has to be with great intensity.

Here’s one of my many experiences on the journey.


Visit to Sedona

It was September 2011 Vady and I had planned a trip to Sedona and we would also visit my cousin and aunt in Arizona. It was that same month that Sri Nandini Maa left her body and we wondered if we should go and we thought that if she was there should would say “why not.”

When we arrived in it was certainly different from Texas. The red rocks are strikingly beautiful and the landscape is breathtaking. There is a different kind of energy there and we wanted to visit the vortex that they talked about. We called and booked a guide to take us around. The morning just before we left on the tour, we encountered a woman who was leaving the hotel to go back home. She had a hiking stick that she offered me because she had finished using it. I thanked her and was happy to have it as we went for the tour. We had to climb a little and it was very helpful and I thanked God for taking care of us. We always have to see and be grateful on how the universe is manifesting. The guide took us to the 4 vortexes and if one is sensitive enough then one can actually feel the energy. It felt the same as when sitting in a room with Sri Nandini Maa but it was not as strong as I sometimes felt with Sri Maa. So I understand about why people go there but just imagine I was walking the path of someone whose divine energy radiated that high – she was like a living, walking, talking “vortex.” At one of the vortexes(see about vortexes at I remember the guide showing us the clear crystal formation embedded under the rock so many people come to meditate or just sit and feel the energy. At this particular vortex Vady and I sat down to a most wonderful scene. I could feel a little of the vibration .We were on a height and down below was like huge chasm with beautiful forest and rocks with mountains in the background. It was absolutely breathtaking. It’s a really great place to visit. We were lucky it was just the two of us with the tour guide so we got to enjoy it by ourselves. As we sat there looking out with our eyes closed we started to hear the the sounds of the flute. This flute player came behind us and started to play the most beautiful flute music. We heard him greet the guide and he knew him. It was a special treat for us as we began to think of Sri Krishna and the flute. It was as if the universe manifested for us such a beautiful experience. We can never forget that.

This particular tour guide was a spiritual seeker himself and lived in Sedona himself because he had many experiences. His experiences led him to different paths and as part of his tour we would walk the Native Ameican Medicine Wheel. The wheel is a circle of stones laid out like a mandala and we go around and the guide talks certain things and tells us when to stop. Each stop represents different times or life changing events in our life. The last stop tells us what it is saying our our present life and how to go forward.. something to that effect. Vady and I got different results. I remember he told me that a new life had begun for me and must grasp it. He said a bunch of things that really pertained to my spirituality. I had left my job a year ago and was contemplating “what to do? How do I teach meditation to people or how should I start this work”  Of course the guide did not know this, but as we were leaving and he was saying not a lot of people stop at that stone but it is a big shift in my life. I confessed about wanting to do spiritual work because my Guru had told me. He suggested that I must go for it. Over the years I have learned that the universe really speaks to us in subtle ways but we have to really pay attention.

I don’t remember if I had told Vady at the time but kept feeling like eating “prasad”. I probably did not since “where would I get it there?

We had to search for vegetarian places to eat. There were a few but the Indian place was a bit too spicy for me. Anyways we went to visit some new age book stores. The store had a kind of energy that I did not like. I could not stay there long. I told Vady lets just look quickly and leave. There were many religious statues and objects of many different religions and other mystical stuff. I feel some of the objects give me a feeling of nagativity. There were even UFO stuff there.

I am not sure if it was the same day but as we were driving back to the hotel there was a particular cross section( that we drove past everyday and it was close to the hotel) that I always was curious as to where does this road lead too. I told Vady lets explore. We came to a library but also to a Hare Krishna Temple which is raising money to build a Vedic cultural center called ” Sedona Center of Vedic Culture ( We chatted with the Pundit there who was very nice to us. We told him that we are Krishna devotees and he told us to come for prayer in the evening. We told him we had to look for something vegetarian to eat and if he had any recommendations. He then invited us to come and he will cook us dinner. We went back to our hotel very happy since we were going to get food from Sri Krishna. We went back around 5 or 6 pm and he did the puja. The pundit and 2 other people then started playing different instruments and singing the chant in different ways. Since Vady and I were accustomed to singing we were able to join in nicely. They liked our singing. It turns outs that they are a band and they called themselves “Red Rock Rishis.” They invited us to join their band and go with them to Australia and other places to sing there and in other temples. We were totally flattered . They had different ways or rhythm that they did the chant in. After that we had simple delicious khichdi and salad and the best of all he made special halvah for us. I finally got the halvah that I was craving the whole trip.

Being on vacation we decided to visit an Ayurveda Spa( Ayurveda Sedona) for massages. We got the leaflet in the hotel. I was on the phone with Ayani the owner, finding out about their massages, packages and prices. We decided on hot oil massages and she did some different things in this package also. As she asked my name and I told her she paused for a an instant , enough to notice and have me wondering what was the matter. We had the most heavenly massages and part of the treatment was also putting warm ghee in the eye. It was a very nice place with good energy and she played the Gayatri mantra while we were getting the massage. After the massage and while we were paying we got to chatting and I was most curious why she paused on the phone when I was making the reservation. She said that she was doing the Devi puja daily(it was Navraatri time) and when I told her my name was “Parbatee” she thought that Devi was coming to visit her. That was an amazing experience because that was how I felt.

The rest of the stay we drove around and visited other sites. One of the most memorable of our visit was yet to come. It was our visit to the Vortex Church in Sedona called the Chapel of the Holy Cross. Its a beautiful small chapel that no longer hold worship. They sell religious trinkets and is a tourist place to visit. For me it was a place full of energy that started to vibrate within me. I am very sensitive to places and energy. I could feel inside me vibrating and my hand start raising in a blessing mudra as I walked inside the building. It got so overwhelming that I left Vady and sat on the bench outside. My hands went up in the blessing mudra. I would usually get this when I am in a group of people who are praying or chanting. There was no one here praying but people must have prayed here in the past. All that I could think of at the moment was Jesus and the words that came into my head was “Blessed art thou, blessed are all who walketh here”. Now I don’t know if “walketh” is a real word that is used in the Bible. All I can say is that I could not bring my hand down. I sat to the side on the bench and no one was really paying attention to me since the whole scene there is so beautiful. It is beautiful all around. It’s a must for anyone who goes to Sedona. I sat there unable to move my hand from the blessing mudra with those words in my head. Vady came after a while and I was able to break free and tell her what was going on. We stayed a while and then we left. The experience was meaningful to me on my journey. My thoughts then were that the  “Holy Spirit” dwells in me and my blessings come from that force. I knew then that different religions did not matter but a true seeker will always find truth.

Your experience will be different to mine but it could be amazing beyond words.


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