Love, meditation, focus and contemplation on God will yield results.
Meditation helps you to understand yourself better, understand your life better and understand your connection to the divine.
It also helps you to understand some aspects of the universe that you may have not have thought about. You will definitely begin to understand the difference between religion and spirituality.
Meditation may help you to see the connectedness in everything and everyone.
Meditation may help you in understanding what foods that are best suited for you making you healthier.
Meditation may help you to change some aspect of yourself that you want to change but having a hard time doing so.
Following the instructions of a real Guru yield results faster. It may ease you into direct divine experiences of the masters or deities and your divine self.
As I was in my garden the thoughts came that it’s so funny that people think that God’s messages only come from the past gurus/prophets/masters/ saints/avatars etc. Why would that be?
If you tell someone you loved God or talked about God then they would look at you like “you crazy”, but in the middle of their troubles they would be privately praying to God in whatever religion or form of God they believe in. God does not have a religion or favors a religion or people over another. Within your religion the love for God is what propels you to make divine contact. So some have said that God’s religion is love. Some founders and ancient wisdom have left us with tools. Some tools are better than others.
My divine contact with God have led me to experience things that I have described in my blog and webpage. It’s so funny that people have not been inquisitive to ask “how does it feel when you become Durga or Krishna?” Or, “if we sit in your presence will we also feel the presence of Krishna or Christ when you feel the presence of that form within you”. “Would I be able to ask questions?”
When I was doing sadhana, I would go and meet gurus, saints and sages to see what I would experience and what I would learn. Answers came to me without me asking it. When I met my Guru I stopped going everywhere because things began to shift inside me and instead of just belief and faith there was direct experiences that started to come about. It’s like trying to describe what is laughter to someone who has not laughed before or the taste of honey to someone who has not tasted it before. So I found out that this sometimes happens to others when they sit with me. Are you brave enough to sit with me?
I realized that it was only God that facilitated me to meet my Guru and so it will be like that for others.
God would not create a world without the ability to teach the humans as their brain capacity changes. God would not make God’s Presence be known only in one period of time to only one set of people so God has programmed a way for knowledge to be available in any period to those who seek. So masters and teachers qualify for such according to their karma.
I love becoming or feeling the energy of Lord Krishna so for this Krishna Janmasthami 2025, if Lord Krishna graces me with his form, I will do a live short session on YouTube.
Each God/Goddess, master, or satguru has a unique cosmic energy pattern. One can say it is a unique vibration.
Whereas the energy of Sri Durgaa will make you feel like you will explode from inside out, Sri Laksmi is most pleasant and captivating. It is subtle, sensuous(not sexual), luxurious, sweet, blissful and a smile radiates from within. It is sheer pleasure but I don’t feel my body inside. Its like I’m experiencing my aura but as if the aura is connected to my nervous system running through my arms, face, legs , and back and the bliss is so sweet. I wonder how it will feel I am not in my body. This is different to other experiences where you experience the whole inner body as well. When I first started to experience the mudra some years ago, it was less subtle and more forceful but now as I have gone more deep into the Ananda kosha, then I don’t have the mudra anymore. However I think if I’m with devotees of Shri Laksmi, the mudra might appear to show her presence.
I am just drunk with bliss. There are no pains or incoming thoughts, but I can use some part of mind or awareness to acknowledge and know that I am experiencing this unique feeling and observe how it feels. This is why I can describe it. While I am writing this it is gone, but if I just say and think Jai Shri Lakshmi then I’m in that again. Then I won’t be able to talk or to write this.
If I stay long then my imagination or something brings to me a place of me sitting on some kind of bed or furniture covered with white sheets soft like silk. The back rest is with white and gold and the room has of gold trimmings on the doors and some parts with white walls. The place is decorated in flowers and it seems heavenly. But I am sitting there all wrapped in this bliss. I think it’s my imagination so I stop letting my mind go there and just stay within my body and pay attention to my awareness of my bliss. It’s like this cosmic energy lives in pure beauty inside and outside and adds everything that is beautiful in the world. It is so wonderful that I have to share it.
I write stories sometimes from my life so that one day my grandchildren or great grandchildren would have a point of reference of what life was like in my time. I share this one to give thanks to Mona and Lee.
Lee is on the left and Mona on the right. This was taken at on Mona’s wedding day many years ago.Here’s the dress on my wedding day.
I was 22 years of age and was about to get married. I was a village girl and not very stylish and did not know much about putting on make-up or hair styling. It was probably the same for most of the girls in the village. People in the village had lots of children and worked very hard to bring them up.
I worked at a bank and remember taking out a small loan to help with wedding expenses. I remember accompanying my mom to shop for sarees in the town of San Fernando. There were not a lot of Indian stores but we had managed to get a beautiful red sari at a reasonable price and some costume jewelry. (On my wedding day my mom surprised me with some gold jewelry). We also got a yellow sari to be worn on Saturday night and Sunday morning for the “hardee” ceremony.
Hindu weddings in Trinidad may have changed overtime but it those days it consisted of three days of activities. There would be pre-wedding celebrations on Friday and Saturday and the actual wedding on Sunday. Most of this was done at the brides home. Friday night would be the “hardee night”, the Trinidad term for ” the Haldi ceremony”. Family and very close friends were invited to apply turmeric paste (haldi) on the bride’s face, arms and feet and sometimes poke fun at the bride. On Saturday it was more focused on food preparation, the “parching of the Lawa/Laawa (rice paddy),” and Maticoor rituals, decoration of the mandap. It included music and singing and sometimes a live band. The groom was not present for any of this but people would apply turmeric to the groom as well at his house.
As the custom or tradition went at the time: On Sunday the bride comes out in a yellow sari for part of the ceremony and then goes back inside. When the groom arrives, then she comes out in a red sari and the actual wedding ceremony takes place. After the wedding, the bride dresses with a white wedding dress as she leaves with her husband. This was the influence of living in a different society rather than living in India where you would go home in the same sari. I guess the custom changed because girls wanted to see how they looked in a wedding dress. At that time, most weddings took place like that and we just followed that instead of thinking about purpose etc. I basically had no knowledge of anything and there was no internet so I went along with my mom what everyone was doing. So the question was, where was I going to get a white wedding dress? They did not have stores selling it so it had to be made by someone.
My mom and I then went to see her cousin Lee and asked her if she could sew one for me. Lee sewed dresses for people and had an eye for fashion and makeup. My cousin Mona, also knew how to sew clothes, style hair and apply make up and she and Lee had a very close relationship. Lee told my mom that since my brother, who was resided in the United States, was coming to the wedding then he could bring a wedding dress. It would be cheaper and very beautiful. So we wrote to my brother and my brother’s wife had said she would bring one.
Lee and Mona came to the hardee ceremony on Friday evening just two days before the actual ceremony on Sunday. I showed them the dress that was brought from the US. It was a plain white midi dress. They were so surprised! After talking for a few minutes they said “you are not going to wear that”. They took my measurements for a dress and left. I did not know anything about my brother and sister-in-law’s budget and since she came from a different culture I could not judge. I felt a bit sad and disappointed but did not show it. I contemplated whether to wear the dress or not. Anyway I was caught up in the rest of the festivities and things to be done for the wedding.
We did not have phones so I did not hear anything back from Mona and Lee. It was now Sunday morning at about 10 o’clock and I had just finished the puja ceremony with my yellow sari. I was about to put on the red sari for the actual wedding when they arrived. They then showed me this absolutely beautiful dress and a tiara. I could not believe it! I tried it on and it fit perfectly. Would you believe that? It was like in a fairy tale and they were like my fairy god mothers. They did not wave an actual magic wand but it seemed that way, since they sewed a wedding dress for me in ONE day. They had taken the measurements for a dress on Friday night and came back two days later with a wedding dress. I felt very beautiful that day in my red sari and then in that gorgeous wedding dress they made . They helped me tie my sari, fix my hair and put on makeup. I donned a tiara. I did not know what a tiara was, honestly.
It was many years later when I got a chance to talk to Mona about the dress. She told me the following story: She and Lee were totally shocked to see the dress that my sis-in-law brought. Lee had had experiences of people bringing beautiful dresses from the US that were better than she can sew. She felt really bad because my mom had come to her. Lee and Mona decided to sew the dress. Early on Saturday morning they went to Port-of-Spain to gather materials. They came back to Couva and started sewing. They only took breaks to eat and sewed late into the night until the dress was done!
Are you saying WOW! Well I am certainly saying that. I had no idea then what transpired, only grateful that there were people of that caliber in my family. I was barely acquainted with Lee but knew Mona a little and they did this great thing for my mom and me. Would you do such a thing? I had lost touch with Mona for quite some time since I moved to the US and she moved to Canada, but now we chat on the phone sometimes.
These two women made my wedding day special for what they did. Nowadays, I now wonder how many people would do such a thing? In the world where values and truth seem to be collapsing, I know there are still those who are doing wonderful things like this. Please give kudos to these two beautiful, kind and inspiring women – Lee and Mona.
It was my birthday recently and I felt so much love.
Got these on my birthday.
Celebrations started a few days earlier with my dear friend and disciple, Aasha. We went to the Lake Travis area for 2 days. The hotel was great and everywhere we went it was like the universe had conspired for us to have a great time. The drive was nice and when we arrived at Bee Cave we could feel a difference in the energy field. It was calmer than the area where we lived. The hotel attendant offered an upgrade to a suite since it was my birthday, but I opted to take the room on the 5th floor. The views from the hotel room were quite stunning in this part of the hill country.
Sunset from the top floor of the hotel.
Being vegan/vegetarian we knew that food would be a concern anywhere we travel so we had checked and there were a few restaurants in the area that had possibilities and hence why we chose the area. We did not plan anything ahead and thought we would go with the flow. For breakfast we asked for recommendations at the hotel but the place we went did not have things that would work because my diet is very strict. I don’t eat onions, garlic, tomatoes, sugar, wheat(once in a while), cheese, milk, citrus or anything spicy, among other things. We did a search and found a place that paid attention to allergies and used local produce in their menu. The place was called The Well. We were able to get a good breakfast there and the service was amazing. In the afternoon we visited the Oasis – which is a famous restaurant overlooking Lake Travis.
The Oasis
At the Oasis
The Well was not too far from the hotel so we even went back for lunch. They were happy to see us again and we chatted and told the attendant how we like the area and it felt very peaceful. They said yes, and they do see some celebrities now and again. No wonder because when we went to Lake Travis we saw those billion dollar homes.
The Well
The Well
Before lunch we went out to Lake Travis and Aasha rented a boat. As we were climbing down to the docks I was wondering how I am going to back up. It was a steep climb down with many many steps and no handrail. As soon as we got down we asked if there was an easier way back up. Thank god the people at the counter said that we can bring the car down to the boat ramp and I had to just walk to that. It was a short walk on the jetty. I felt at ease and now I could enjoy the lake. If you have read the book Fourth Wing it was like walking the Parapet to me. LOL.
The Steps to the Boat Dock
The attendant who gave us the boat gave a few tips about the boat features and handling the boat and we got a map of the lake. We rented it for just an hour so we had to make good on time and had to understand the buoy markers. Aasha started the boat and we were on our way. It was perfect weather. The sky was blue except for a few white clouds, the water looked blue and glorious and there were no high winds. We both felt so relaxed and started to really enjoy being on the water. Although it was spring break there was not much traffic on the lake. We passed a sailboat, two jet skis whisked by and after there there was no one. After about half an hour on the lake as we looked to the sky we saw this unusual cloud around the sun. We saw a rainbow but it was arching upwards in the opposite direction of rainbows. It was arching around the sun and surrounded by some see-through clouds(not thick). We stopped after a few minutes just to enjoy the lake and took the phenomena as a blessing. We felt that it was auspicious. Later when I did research I found out it is called a sun halo.
On the Lake – The Sun Halo
As we sat there, I felt an overwhelming sense of complete peace in my physical body as well as my usual peace within my being. My physical body felt no waves of society or other things. I felt like I could just lay there and watch the sky, but we could not stay since we had to take back the boat before the hour passed. As I spoke to Aasha about how she felt, she said she could not even get the camera to take pictures because she felt so good. It was amazing and I knew we would go back there sometime in the future. I like the open air spaces.
When I walk among trees I feel the aura around my body feeling the trees and above at top of my head is obstructed by the trees, even though it may be a tall tree. So when I would go to the park I would walk under the trees and feel good but it felt best when I was in the open pavilion and the trees and water was nearby. When I go to the grocery store it does not feel good. There is one store, if I stay there for more than five minutes, I get a headache. If I am wearing the wrong clothes it becomes hard on my body. I start to feel tiny disturbances that could result in some kind of ache and uneasiness and it could turn into a headache. It’s like my body can feel a harshness in certain materials, especially man-made fabrics. As a result, I have problems finding the right materials. When this started happening years ago I did not know but after observation and experiences I learned. Then I knew why my Guru ji wore silk and soft natural fabrics. I know I strayed from the point but I just wanted to say how this feeling on the boat felt so good.
On our way home we visited Bee Cave Arts Foundation Sculpture Park. It’s a small park and was very quiet and nice to stroll around to pass the time. Here are some pictures.
The next day we went back to the lake but this time to a park overlooking Lake Travis. It was just a small hike and the view was spectacular. We stayed a bit but it became very cloudy and very windy. We were glad we were not on a boat!
At lake Travis parkAt lake Travis Park
We then decided to grab lunch at Whole Foods and head home.The drive back took longer than our journey when we left. When we were about half to three quarters the way home, we felt a shift. The peaceful nature of the place was gone. However, it was a great beginning to my birthday celebrations.
The next day of celebrations was with my son, daughter and grandchildren. . We went to this Thai vegan place and enjoyed lunch. It’s wonderful to just sit and be together and feel the love flow. After that we went to two mattress stores since I am looking to get a new bed/ mattress. It was a good day to do this because I got more opinions and did not have to drive. I am still pondering sleep number or tempur-pedic. When I get one I will consider it my birthday gift to myself. To add to this Camille, my daughter made me a wonderful family video which I love. To have a family is wonderful.
On my birthday I met with my meditation group who wanted to have a celebration. We had it online and it was nice to get the wishes and the love. I love all those flowers that were sent and also given in person by some members, my daughter and my sister. My living room looks divine with divine flowers.
My friend and disciple Aasha made this video for me. So much appreciation. Our friendship is a divine one. It is like best friends and also guru-disciple like Sri Krishna and Arjuna or Yoda and Skywalker. LOL. It is rare and precious. We have had sometimes mind boggling experiences as the universe conspires.
Nowadays the terms frequency and density are being used a lot by many. As a novice you might say I don’t know what they are talking about, but if you are a bit psychic or an em-path or healer then you probably have an idea or experience of something and you can try to express it by using the current terms to express energy or something you can feel in your body or auric field.
With that in mind let us talk of spiritual change. When one changes then the body begins to feel different. With much vibrational change then you actually feel the density of the body has changed. The electrical current is more vibrant in the body. So now you feel more energy, whether it be of food, people, places, buildings or masters. The density has definitely changed. Just as a caterpillar changed to a butterfly and had to change it’s diet, so to someone whose density has shifted then the diet has to change. As one is shifting then the same foods that you ate before might cause problems. Nowadays you might not know if it’s the change in the food or the change in your being. If one is doing spiritual work or just “sadhana” then you would have to learn what foods to avoid or how to change the way you cook or the times you eat. These are some of the things I cover in my meditation classes.
Sometimes there are natural forces in the astronomy and mother nature that causes mankind to shift , so there are cycles of change.
Everything is vibrating and so there are natural vibrations and artificial vibrational objects or waves. For example – cell phones and streaming TV have their own frequencies and these will disrupt the person who is more spiritually inclined because their density has changed. Something for you to think about. Stomach and digestion-al issues may not just be about the food and the mental stress of what is going on in the world.
Different energies have different vibrations and operate on what we can term different frequencies. So the people you hang out with will be agreeable to your frequency.
In other to pick up the knowledge of the masters then you will have to shift to their frequency and that can happen on one only if the density of body has changed. Did I lose you? People who feel different frequencies, pick up different energies or see the light body(Shamans see this) would know what I am writing about, but may have different terminology to describe things.
Anyways, the change in the diet now goes beyond the knowledge of what modern science or ancient Ayurveda gives. One has to study the system very carefully. Food provides us with energy but all elements and people, and places have energy attached to them. The things you see, the things you hear, and the clothes you wear etc.
So how do you get this knowledge? The Divine mother provides that knowledge as she has been giving that knowledge to many. For example an advanced yogini can pick up a vegetable or other food and know the direct effect it will have on the system and choose to eat it or not. Food that is stale is a whole issue in itself. It affects this less dense body in a big way. If you think about it, all the boxed cereal and chips are stale. So this change is not for everyone but it is knowledge for healers or people who are feeling things they can’t understand or experiencing a shift in density. Fresh fruits, vegetable, beans, lentils, salads and nuts are great, being out in nature(near the body of water, in the park, near the mountains etc)) taking walks and drinking lots of water are great. Looking up at the sky and staying off the phone will help you. Since the body is less dense you will get some great energy going into your system. This is good advice for everyone for everyone feels better. For the one with the less dense body it is very troubling living in the suburbs.
Anyways, I am sure this has gotten too long for some to read but ultimately everyone in on their own to find out things about themselves and the universe or whatever one’s goal is. If you want to be an athlete, your diet will have to be different.
Hope this get out to the people who are growing and are having a hard time. Maybe it will click with someone.
Just as the butterfly has to learn to take nectar, so to the spiritual person has to find what is nectar for them or else life becomes difficult. Ultimately the Divine mother showers them with the knowledge.
As I lay in bed I thought of Jesus since it’s Christmas day. I also thought of the state of the world, about wars, the rise in the behavior of stupidity, the rise in “un-truth”, and the mental breakdown. It looks like a world of total chaos. Always has been but it seems to be stepping into ignorance and darkness and as some of the light dims.
I went into that space that I go in and I became that. I once again became merged in energy, light and consciousness and the ego part of Parbatee disappeared and I merged into the essence of what we call Christ. My being understood and echoed “I am the light, I am the way. Fear not.”
Let those who feel hopeless, be hopeful again. God is not of the past and future but God is always among us. God is a living God. God is not hidden in the heavens and books but can be accessed within.
From that state the message is:”You are because I am, Don’t let the darkness of ignorance and the ego overrun this existence. Remain in truth. Only a man of truth will know others who speak truth. Blessed are the peace-makers. Blessed are ones who’s hearts are pure and full of light. Blessed are the ones who’s light shine through their intellect. Blessed are those whose light shines through their compassion. Blessed are those who always acknowledge me and hence have a close relationship with me. For those, they don’t have to ask for blessings for it is given what is needed. Blessed are those who take care of the plants and animals for they become my care takers and are taken care of. Blessed are the ones who holds their strength in me. Blessed are the ones that feel and know me from within. Blessed are those who walk the path of love.”
